Thursday, July 24, 2008 6:08 PM
Just Won't Do
To You.Copying isn't changing.What I say probably won't have any effect on you whatsoever . . . Okay, it won't have any effect at all. That's the truth.
I'm sorry for the past few months. I know the way I've been treating you ain't fair. But I don't regret it, honestly. And besides, it's not just me that's doing this.
You've changed. I know, I know, you've been getting that a little too much. But even you know that this is what's happened.
I'll tell you this here and now cause I don't know how much longer I'll be able to put up with you.
I used to like you, but I don't so much now.
I don't hate you, but I don't like you that much as well, it's leaning more to the opposite, really.
I don't love you,
but I still care a bit, and it's enough to make me let you know that
I pity you.
I pity you for not being able to let go and move on.
I pity you for not being able to stand up and get over it.
I pity you for thinking copying is changing.
I pity you for thinking that throwing yourself into your own little world will make things better.
I pity you for not being able to have your own ideas and style, for not having the capability to be original. There's lots more, but I don't see the need to mention it right now.
Here's the thing.
You said you'd change. I know you're not doing it for me, as you obviously aren't very fond of me right now as I'm not of you. So people'll probably think that I'm this
retarded stick for doing this anyway. But anyways, you're obviously not really doing anything.
You just keep faking it and copying shit. It doesn't help. Life don't work that way, hun. If you think that just by putting on the
fake-ass smile of yours and giving us that
fake-ass ohi'mtryingsohardtobeanicelittlelady laugh and attitude will change our feelings towards you,
your plan seriously isn't working. It just annoys us more cause you're not keeping to your word.
Also,
stop lying to us. You're telling us a lot of lies and making up a lot of excuses, thinking it'll make you seem like a better person. I sure hope as hell that you don't think we're
THAT dumb. We can see through all your talk. Again,
it's not working. Just be honest if you did something, at least then you might have the chance of gaining our trust back bit by bit. Unless that's not what you want, then
sorry, my mistake.
And importantly,
please STOP COPYING ! Do you have any idea
AT ALL how
fucking ANNOYED this makes us? I'm sure you have at least a
tiny little idea what I mean. If you need help with remembering, come look me up anytime.
As for me, personally, I think you're going a tad too far with the whole lying and copying shit. It was
OUR idea,
STOP COPYING IT AND MAKING IT SEEM LIKE YOUR OWN.
Don't you have any fucking sense of basic COURTESY? Do you know what MANNERS are? And
stop trying to fish info out of my buddy.
WE AIN'T TELLING YOU ANYTHING, AND WE DON'T PLAN TO. You think we're gonna tell you all our shit just by trying to
kiss up to us a bit and ask? Oooh, that'd be
reeeally fun for you, wouldn't it?
Sorry to poop your party. And not
ALL that we talk about
HAS to
NECESSARILY be about you. So
stop trying to barge in on our conversations and make yourself a part of it.
If we don't wanna talk about it with you, then it's none of your business. Oh and another thing, if we don't wanna share stuff with you,
LIVE WITH IT. If you want some, do something to make us
WANT TO share with you.
If you're not sincere about it, forget it. We don't expect you to change overnight. Things like this
take time. Just take your time. Better slow than never.
Faking it isn't the right way. I know you feel kinda hurt inside. Anyone would.
Just think about it. Give it at least a minute of thought.
God knows I can go on with this forever. There's just so much I wish I could tell you. I know you said I was a
coward cause I knew about all this but didn't tell you about it. I'm not a stupid, stuck up asshole.
And I accept what you say. Cause I know that's just an opinion coming from some
sore person who just can't look past things long gone.
But if I'm a coward, what does this make you?We're all waiting. So am I. I'm waiting for that certain person to come back. That person that I used to crave to spend time with. That person that I'm slowly starting to forget, as much as I don't want to.
Time will tell if our friendship was meant to be. If it wasn't, then oh well, I'll know how to move on. I just hope you'll be able to do the same.
Regards,
eLi